A Work at Home Mom’s Blog

I’m beyond drained right now. Every time I turn around, there’s something to attend to. We’re still in the process of finalizing our public assistance claims. Bill collectors are calling incessantly. Hubby has started going to the chiropractor. He had to file for unemployment to qualify for a certain type of assistance, and there are all those weekly certifications and job search things to attend to. And I’m the one who has to keep up with it all. If only my biggest worry was who to call for RV repair.

It’s not that Hubby isn’t willing to help. It’s that he’s not able. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this on my blog before, but he can’t read and has a lot of trouble understanding instructions and other things. So pretty much all of the non-physical work to keep the household going falls on my shoulders. And with my inability to concentrate and anxiety issues, I’m having a rough time of it.

If all of these problems would just magically vanish, I think I could support the family with no problem whatsoever. I’ve been the sole breadwinner on a couple of occasions in our years together, and it worked out just fine. But I don’t think I’ve ever had this much to contend with.

It’s all been very draining. I woke up this morning feeling like I hadn’t slept a wink, even though I actually got a decent night’s sleep for once. I dragged my feet all day, but managed to get online and seek out all of the expense receipts that were needed to process the claim. I was on the phone a lot too, trying to get various places to send needed information to various other places. By the time I was done with all that, I was ready to crash. And I did.

Hubby had a pretty decent day today, so he took it upon himself to take care of me. He brought me lunch at my computer desk, and supper in bed. And for once, he didn’t even complain because I was sleeping while everyone else was up.

I’ll have more stuff to attend to tomorrow, and I hope it doesn’t wear me down to the point I was worn down today. I’m hoping to take Pumpkin to see my mom this weekend, and I’d like to be able to enjoy my time there.